If I would have the guts #Tomboy

If I would have the guts

If only I had the courage to change my outcome, how I present myself to people around me. To show the real me inside, with no filters or thinking what should I wear, what should I be saying..

First thing that would change at that point, is my hair. I have long hair now and I hate it. I have it for few years now, before I always had shoulder length hair. But for the last year I'm feeling the need to cut it all off. I want to have hair like a boy, styled as I want to, just how I feel about it. If I wanted to have messed up hair, I would. If I wanted to use lots of hair gel to stlye it, then I would. If I wanted to leave it as 'I woke up like this' thing, then I would. That's what I want and that's what I'm looking for in my future being, when I'll have the guts to cut my hair for real.

Source: andro-boi.tumblr.com

But not just hair, all the outside of me. For instance, how I dress. I have a certain passion for tomboy style clothes. When I am wearing those combinations of clothes, I feel free, I really feel myself being opened and give an opinion about me to the people who see me like that. I also reflect the clothes in acting more like a man or boy-ish, which is also what I loove doing. It's just my thing. I don't feel like a girly girl, I never did. 

Source: Pinterest

But now, when I am becoming more open minded and I see all the posibilities for a human to be, then I begin to question myself, who I am. Before that, I thought that I am that person, that people around me wanted me to be. I thought that there's no other option, that's it. Like I have no word in this. Oh, I was wrong. 

Now I'm begining to understand myself and why I do certain stuff that other girls don't. And at the same time I'm getting lost in all the possibilities for me to be. So hopefully, I'll soon know for sure who I am, and I hope that I'll be able to admit that in front of others too. 

Tanja, just … don't live in a lie.

Check my Pinterest board Tomboy. where I pin photos of tomboys, example of what I want to let out, be like other tomboys, who have the guts to be themselves.

Also I made a YouTube Vlog I'm not living my life as myself, here's a bit of what I am going through right now.

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